Its Raining......

I've been writing for a newspaper, and I loved doing that. But somehow it gave me the feeling that I'd forgotten how to write for myself ; never having to consider what the reader would like to know about. I enjoyed my work a lot but missed the feeling of writing just for the sake of writing... Its time I indulged myself again. So, here goes.

Rains in India are a complex phenomena. We love them, we hate them , we pray for them and then we pray for them to stop. I have always loved the sound of raindrops falling on tree leaves in my garden and on the cooler outside my window as I sit at my table and write. There was a time when every rain meant an open air bath for me, but now frolicking in the rain has become a rare occurrence. I guess that's because as we grow older, we seem to do more of the things we should or must do, rather than those we really want to do. But now I'm digressing from what I really set out to write . Yes, those devilish arrows from heaven.

Well, my love for the pattering crystal drops considerably lessened when my backyard flooded over. No, I don't live in Bihar or Orissa or some flood-prone area, I belong to a comfortably well-off middle class family and I have a decently big house. But in my city, like in any other Indian city, drains have a tendency to transform into lakes at the slightest provocation. In fact, about 8 years ago, I even had to wade through one outside my school gates. But thankfully, that has changed in the last few years. However, to come back to my backyard, not only was it flooded with water but also with muck from the drains flowing behind my house. Great. That was till last year. This year, something new happened. My kitchen floor flooded over too, and it gave us all a high blood pressure until the waters subsided. To think that we don't even live in the vicinity of a river changing its course... Imagine what would have happened if we did, was what I used to think. And I had plenty to imagine this year when I saw the images of the massive floods in Bihar. I don't want to talk about how completely soul-wrenching it is. That would be impossible to explain in words. But what I kept feeling the whole time was, would these people still love the rains? I really have no answer for it.

Yesterday night, I was standing in my backyard, feeling the breeze tug at my hair (I love it when it does that) when I felt tiny drops landing on the top of my head. So I did what I hadn't done since a long time; stood there and let the heavens pierce me with silver arrows. I really need to say this : it elated me like nothing else had done in a long time. On the other side of the wall,street children played on the road, making a lot of hullabaloo. A sudden sound made me aware of the water filling up in my backyard again, and bringing the muck along with it. I sighed and remembered my domestic help telling me how every monsoon her shack became like a house built on water....... and I also remembered her children playing out there, despite all that.

I really don't know for sure, but I think despite all the troubles it brings us, we always love the rains in some corner of our heart. What do you think?